You know what assume means...

I really shouldn't be allowed to think for myself. I just never come to the right conclusions. I mean, I leap from crazy idea to crazy idea, and when I think I've finally got it right, that I'm not being crazy; it turns out that I still am. And that hurts. It hurts to think that I'm just hurting myself by reading too much into things. Yet, I can't stop it. I keep drawing my own conclusions and getting hurt, time and again, and I don't want to do it anymore. I'm tired of being hurt, I'm tired of feeling hurt.
There was this one instance where something was talked about so much, that I made the mistake of thinking that it was true. So, I sought confirmation, on the slim chance (or so I thought) that I was just a mental-case. But it was proven yet again, that it was all in my head. I just have to stop thinking. Or at least, I have to start assuming the worst, because at least then when I'm wrong, I'll be relieved and not disappointed.
And that's my rant for the day.
Later on, some of my poetry I wrote early this morning...